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I still cannot believe she passed. Paige and I connected on Face Book about a year ago After not seeing each other since 1999 or 2000. We Face Booked back and forth some. She wanted to see me and Chris again. She was going to go to Murfreesboro in October to watch him show.
I knew she was terminal. But Paige didn't talk time lines with me. So I felt we had plenty of time for the visit in October. I had to go to a couple of trainings for work and drove past Mt Juliet. But was behind to get to the facility and no time to stop. We talked about meeting up at other times for dinner or a visit. The timing never worked out! Why didn't it work out! I so regret that it didn't. Paige wanted to see me. I should have moved Heaven and Earth to see her. But once again, thought we had much time and would see her in October at the horse show.
Now Paige is gone and the effort I made to go visit wasn't good enough. I am angry, so angry and disappointed in myself for not seeing her. Not a selfish way at looking what I missed out on. But in a way that I hurt Paige in not seeing her when she wanted me to.
Paige at a horse show with us 1998 |
Paige went to Germany for some experimental treatment--last ditch effort for her and her family. She came home and died a week or so later. Her family had posted the treatment didn't work in Germany and she was resting at home and would not be taking any phone calls or on Face Book, I had immediately wanted to call her but with the post understood I shouldn't. It was several days later the post was on her page from a family member that Paige had died.
with that, how much time is left..................
Paige Nash Morris, Terry Allen, Chris and Me December AQHA show in Shelbyville. Full weekend of Roping, Reining, Cowhorse along with the Four F's: Food, Fellowship and Fun |
I love this one Marna - so much truth in your words and such a beautiful tribute to your friend
ReplyDeletePaige was my cousin. Her dad Ray is my mom's brother. I was just sitting here and decided to Google Paige's name and found your blog. I went to Mt Juliet to see Paige off to Germany and I could tell then that she was sometimes "absent". Then next time I could make it up, she was conscious but not able to communicate. I'm sorry you didn't get a chance to meet with P before she passed. But just know that she was "with it" for almost the entire time so she wasn't aware that time was short.
ReplyDeleteShe was such a full of life person when we knew her. I loved to hear her talk and the way she asked my husband Chris questions or talked to him was great-the way she said his name. I know your family has to miss her terribly.
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